Wednesday, October 3, 2018

What They Don't Tell You

Everyone talks about how awesome it is to lose weight.  They show off their new clothes and they talk about how much energy they have now. They don't talk about the weird stuff or the odd stuff or the heaven forbid BAD stuff that goes along with losing weight.  So I'm going to list some of those things here.  But before I do that I will say one thing:  No matter what I would still rather be here at a healthy weight than at my heaviest.  Not because I was fat but because I wasn't healthy and I was almost always in pain.

Ok, here goes. Things they don't usually tell you about losing weight.

You're going to fart...a lot.                                                   
 Eating healthier for me means I seriously increased my fiber and protein intake. I eat a ton of fruit, vegetables and lean protein.  You know what that also means?  Gas.  Yep. I am so gassy.  Fart city.  My fiance says I'm a "Delicate Flower." 😂

Those things that you hate about your life?  They're still there when you lose the weight.                                          
People have this idea that losing weight is going to make their life so much better.  And in some ways it does (I'm healthier, I have less pain and more energy...).  But the bad stuff is still there.  I'm still disorganized, I'm still terrible with money and I STILL deal with depression and anxiety.  In fact during this past year I have had worse symptoms of depression than I've had in a long time.  I've had to change medications twice and I'm seeing a therapist regularly.  Would this have happened if I hadn't lost weight?  I don't know.  When I started eating healthier I took away one of my coping mechanisms.  I ate a lot of sweets and junk before.  Bad day?  Have a cookie or three.  Stressed out? How about a candy bar? No energy?  Fancy a coffee or how about a Mountain Dew? Now that I am eating healthier I've had to confront my feelings and figure out healthy ways to cope.  Turns out exercise works too. So does medication, meditation, therapy and communication.

Stretch marks and loose skin are going to happen.                  
 I had stretch marks before I lost weight.  And thankfully I don't think I've gained too many more of those from losing all the weight.  But loose skin?  I've got plenty of that.  I have bat wings on my arms, wrinkles under my butt and the skin on my belly looks like a Shar Pei puppy. I also have loose skin on my neck, back and legs.And don't get me started on my boobs.  It sucks and it means I have to wear some compression clothes when I run because of discomfort. But I wouldn't change it for the world.  Really.  I earned this shit.  However if someone offered to pay for surgery to tighten it up I would seriously consider it.  Not because I think I look bad or I'm ashamed of it.  I wear tank tops all the time bat wings be damned!  My real reasons for wanting surgery?  I don't like how it feels when I run.  If I don't wear compression clothes when I run?  I get some serious pain from skin movement.  OUCH!  Again, no matter the pain or how loose my skin gets I would still rather be healthy.

You won't always feel motivated. 

I get ask how I stay motivated all the time.  I don't.  I have days where I don't feel like getting
out of bed for a run. I have days where I want to eat all the chocolate and all the chips and pizza and top it off with a hard cider.  But I get up and I go for a run, even if its a slow and sluggish run.  (I run three days a week.  I'll post more about that later.) And for the most part I stick to my normal diet.  Because I figure I have two options. Stick to the course I'm on right now and eat healthy most of the time.  Or return to where I was before.  Maybe there's another option, somewhere in between the two?  I don't know.  I don't really want to find out.  I just keep putting one foot in front of the other and making decisions one day at a time.  Do I always feel motivated?  Do I always eat healthy?  Nope. I'm human. Weight Watchers talks frequently about "Finding Your Why." Everybody's why is different. My why is the mental picture of myself using a walker or a wheelchair to get around because of my joint issues.  My why is my family history of heart disease and colon cancer.  Some day I'll probably write a whole other post about that.

You're going to lose hair. 


Putting your body into a caloric deficit for a long time stresses it out a bit.  You will burn your body fat stores. (Woo hoo!) But you'll also lose hair (Doh!).  I have seriously curly hair and always lose hair in the shower so I didn't notice it as much at first.  And then I went for my first major hair cut in a long time.  The hairstylist was concerned about breakage and the amount of hair that ended up in the sink.  Oh yeah... I freaked out a hairstylist.  I had to tell her it was normal and that I'd lost about 50 pounds at that point.  Now its all starting to grow back and its driving me crazy.  I now know why so many women cut their hair off when they lose weight. 

I'm sure there are more things that I'm forgetting. I guess I'm saving those for a later post.

Tuesday, August 21, 2018

What I eat?

What's in my lunch bag on a normal day?


Some of the questions I get asked pretty often is what do you usually eat? What does a typical [meal] look like for you?  Do you only/mostly eat fruit and veggies?

I thought I'd walk you guys through a typical day of eating for me.  BUT FIRST, this won't work for everyone.  I'm pretty far along in my journey so my caloric needs won't be the same as someone a bit heavier who is first starting off.  When I started Weight Watchers my daily points were in the 40s (this was before Freestyle changed things a little) and now my daily points allowance is 23 and I get 35 weeklies.  That's a huge difference in calories.  Thank goodness for zero point foods. So if you are following Weight Watchers and get more points then add in some extras! I typically eat all of my dailies and most of my weeklies.  I rarely have roll overs.  (If you are not on Weight Watchers and this all sounds like gobbledy gook I will explain that in a different post.)

Onward to the noms!

☕BREAKFAST☕


I tend to eat a lot of the same things but I don't like to get bored so I have a few different breakfasts that I rotate depending on my mood or what is in the fridge/cupboard that day.

Every day I have a cold brew coffee which consists of 1-2 cups of Stok Cold Brew or cold brew made at home mixed with 1-2 cups of almond/cashew milk.  To sweeten I use Splenda or Stevia  and usually some sugar free flavored coffee syrup.This is 1 Smart Point.  Yep even with 2 cups. If you're using the unsweetened almond/cashew milk it comes out to 1 point for 2 cups. A few times a week, usually after I run I mix this with protein powder for another couple of points.  Its my reward for running and helps with muscle recovery.

I also almost always pair these breakfasts with some sort of fruit. Typically a banana if we have one but I've been addicted to peaches, plums and plumcots lately.

Breakfast 1:

Breakfast Sandwich

2-3 eggs seasoned and microwaved (I spray the dish with nonstick spray to help with clean up) I usually add hot sauce and a little salt/pepper

And then I put that on either a bagel thin (I prefer the Everything flavor) for 3 points, a low fat English muffin 2-3 points, or toast 2 points (I use 40-45 calorie bread)

For extra flavor I will put a little fat free shredded cheddar(0 points) on it and then wrap it in foil.  I can eat it in the car or with my kiddos and the cheese melts from the heat.

Breakfast 2:

Overnight Oats
Before bed I put 1/2 cup of rolled oats and 1/2 cup of almond/cashew milk (4 points) in a container then I add one or more of the following:

  • fruit and cinnamon (I will bake apples and peaches that are getting too ripe and then cut them up and refrigerate them for this purpose or I will use the little lunch packs of sugar free or packed in juice fruit that has been well drained) -0 points
  • powdered peanut butter and splenda/stevia-1 or 2 points depending on the amount of PB I believe)
  • protein powder -1-2 points depending on the powder
  • banana (cut up the morning of instead of the night before to avoid mushy brown ickiness)
Breakfast 3:

Eggo Nutrigrain Lowfat waffles (Or their Aldi brand equivalent) -4 points for 2 waffles
Sugar free syrup or No Sugar added jelly-0-1 point

Breakfast 4:

Instant Oatmeal
I really like Better Oats brand 100 calorie packs. They have flax seed in them and are usually about 3 points per pouch ( I won't lie. I usually eat 2 pouches for 5-6 points)

Breakfast 5:

If I am running really late, have my weight watchers meeting or something else where I don't have the time for any of the above then I usually rely on a good old protein bar. I really like Quest Bars because they are pretty high in protein, tasty and relatively low in points. My favorites are 4-5 points  a piece.

🍏SNACKS🍏

I'm a preschool teacher so I'm lucky that I usually get to eat when my kiddos eat.  That means I can schedule my snacks.  And I love a good snack. Snacking helps me not want to over eat at meals and is a good way for me to get extra servings of fruits, veggies and protein into my day. Here are just some of my go to snacks to throw in my lunch bag. (I have a pretty good sized insulated lunch bag that I bring with me every day with at least one cold pack in it.) For my my snacks I usually pair one of the protein options with a fruit or veggie but I'm also including a couple of my salty snack favorites because sometimes you want that.

  • Light & Fit Greek Yogurt - its 80 calories(2 points) per container and has about 12 grams of protein. My favorite flavors (some of these are seasonal and not year round. It's a tragedy really.): vanilla, pumpkin pie, toasted marshmallow, toasted coconut, strawberry cheesecake, apple pie and key lime.
  • low fat string cheese- usually about 50 calories (1 point)
  • Sugar snap peas- I love the "green" taste to them and the crunch. Bonus that some of my kiddos in my former classroom LOVED these so I would bring enough to share
  • grape/cherry tomatoes- I throw 8-12 of them in a snack sized baggie. They go well with the string cheese.
  • apple
  • cherries- (if I can find them in season at a reasonable price)
  • grapes
  • peaches
  • sliced cucumbers-I either eat them plain or I will marinate them in red wine vinegar and a little splenda if I'm feeling fancy (0 points)
  • carrot chips- I don't like baby carrots but I will eat the carrots cut into chip shapes and dip them in plain greek yogurt (see below)
  • Pirate's Booty cheese puffs- I found the 1/2 oz. bags and they are 2 points per bag
  • Lays Poppables potato snacks- my grocery store carries 1/2 oz. bags and they are 2 points per bag
  • plain nonfat greek yogurt- 0 points (I either pair it with strawberries and a little splenda or mix some ranch seasoning in before I leave for work and dip veggies in it.)
  • Around Halloween you can sometimes find other snack items in small "treat size" bags for low point amounts. A lot of people in Weight Watchers will stock up on those and take them. I did that with ghost shaped veggie chips last year. 
🍔LUNCHES🍔

If you couldn't tell from my post about snacks.  I pack my lunch and snacks for work every day.  I eat when my kids eat because teachers don't typically get breaks until nap time (1 PM or later). 

My lunch usually consists of one or a combination of these:
  • a sandwich-turkey or chicken lunch meat (I get the kind that is 0 points) on either 45 calorie bread(2 points), a light hamburger bun(2 points) or a Tumaro wrap (1-2 points) . I dress this with one or two of these honey mustard (0-1 points depending on the amount type), Dijon mustard (0 points), light cheese (1 point per slice) or fat free shredded cheese (0points
  • Leftovers from a previous dinner (I will post some of those below in Dinners)
  • Canned white chicken chili and cauliflower rice (3-4 points)
  • unsweetened apple sauce (0 points)
  • Tuna salad- water packed tuna with plain yogurt and/or some kind of mustard/relish/pickle concoction (0 points) typically with bread (2 points) or some sort of crackers (2-3 points)
  • Leftover cooked chicken breast (I like to make a big batch on Sunday) with salad greens/veggies and a lowfat dressing (2-3 points for the dressing)
  • I usually have some sort of fruit and/or veggie and sometimes a salty snack. Typically whatever I don't want to  eat for my AM/PM snack that day
🍝DINNERS🍝

I am not fancy. I am not a great cook but I have a few recipes I have added to the rotation that the family doesn't hate and fit into my points. If Josh and the girls want something that I don't want to spend the points on (take out, pizza, mac and cheese, full fat hamburgers) I have some go to easy things that I make just for me as well. This by far not everything I eat but just a sampling.  I'm not perfect.  At least a couple of times a month I come home, think about dinner and decide "Fuck it! I'm having a pint of Halo Top" because I can. It used to be that Josh cooked 99% of the meals in our house.  Now it depends I cook a lot more often now that I am more aware of what I am eating, also because some of these are my recipes or things that Josh isn't as familiar with so it makes sense that I'm the one that cooks them.

We usually pair our dinners with one of these sides: Frozen veggies (0 points), instant mashed potatoes (5 points for 1/2 cup), boiled potatoes (points varies based on amount I usually eat about 4 points for a serving).


  • Salsa chicken/chicken chili-This started out as a recipe I saw on a website and then I just kind of went  "Hmmmm" and added and mixed and adjusted until its not anything like what it started out as.  Here's the basic info though: I throw 3-4 chopped up chicken breasts in the crock pot and add 1 can of corn (drained), a can of black beans (rinsed and drained), a can of kidney beans (rinsed and drained), a can of diced tomatoes (preferably with jalapenos and cilantro but it depends), about 1/3 to 1/2 a jar of jalapenos, a can of salsa (we like Newman's Own Pineapple salsa), hot sauce of your choosing (be as liberal as you want), chili powder, salt and pepper.  This makes a LOT of food.  Usually Josh and I are eating leftovers of this for lunches for most of the week. The recipe always varies. You can add the chicken last so you can stir and taste BEFORE you cook. (The points value varies depending on the salsa. Its anywhere from 0-2 points for a 1-2 cup serving.)
  • Turkey Cutlets I have adapted this recipe a little In the recipe she pan fries them with oil which adds points to the recipe.  I usually bake them at around 375 for 15-20ish minutes. I check the temp frequently. Turkey cutlets are really thin and can dry out fast.  If you bake them then these are 2 points per cutlet.  Keep in mind the cutlets I get at the store are 0 points before the breading process. These are so good that EVERYONE in our house eats them. That's an accomplishment!
  • Baked BBQ chicken breasts- I bake two separate pans. One with regular full sugar BBQ sauce for the family and one with Low Sugar/No Sugar Added BBQ sauce (there are 2 or 3 different brands at my grocery store). Depending on how much sauce I use it's 1-2 points per chicken breast.
  • Turkey Cheddar Meatloaf -another butchered Skinny Taste recipe. I use a combo of 99% and 97% turkey. I am also not skilled/patient enough to actually roll or stuff the meat loaf so I usually mix it all together. We are also big fans of baking it in muffin pans because then it cooks faster and divides up more evenly for portions/points. I usually also use just regular BBQ sauce on the top instead of whatever she calls for in the recipe.  I make approx. 18 muffins. for 2 points per muffin. 
  • Buffalo Chicken Sandwiches- I am the only one in my family who will really eat these so I end up with a lot of leftovers to get creative with for lunches/dinners all week. I throw about a 3 or 4 chicken breasts in the crock pot with anywhere from 1/2 to a whole bottle of Frank's Buffalo Wing Sauce.  It's 0 points.  Seriously.  I eat it on a light burger bun for 2 points total. For leftovers during the week I either eat it the same weigh or I'll throw in some canned jalapenos and eat it over cauliflower rice.
  • Frontera brand frozen meals.  (Chicken taco, fajitas, etc.) These are around 4-5 points for half the bag. And once cooked I either eat them as tacos with Tumaro wraps for 1-2 points per tortilla or over cauliflower rice. Josh and I have tried most of the different types I scan them when I am shopping so I don't remember exactly which ones are how many points but they are REALLY good.  They also make frozen bowl individual meals that are yummy and pretty low in points.
  • Bird's Eye Voila! Garlic Chicken- 7 points for 1 2/3 cups.  You can make it go farther by adding more frozen vegetables with it. I usually eat 2 cups for 9 points.  Then if I'm feeling hungrier I add in frozen corn or mixed veggies and its a huge meal.  This is a great easy quick meal to have in the freezer for nights without a lot of time.
🍨SWEETS🍨
I have a HUGE sweet tooth. If I didn't allow myself to have dessert or sweets most evenings I would feel deprived and be more likely to cheat or binge on junk. Here are some of my go to sweets.
  • Halo Top Ice Cream- 280-360 calories per pint.  You can have half a cup for 2-4 points or a whole pint for 9-13 points.  It depends on my night, points, mood.  They have so many different flavors and I've only really found one that I didn't like (green tea mochi because of the jellies)
  • Quest Bars- See breakfasts for details.  I will say this about Quest Bars.  Don't eat them too often or more than one in a day. There is something in the combo of fiber/protein that they use that is delicious but will set like cement in your guts. (TMI- I have a friend who is never constipated. but when they were eating them daily even they got backed up.)
  • Protein One Bars- They are a new treat from Fiber One.  I really like the strawberry flavor and they are about 2 points apiece.
  • Baked peaches/apples- I will slice a peach or apple in half, sprinkle with cinnamon and Splenda and bake it at 400 until its soft.  I sometimes top it with a smidge of almond milk whipped cream.  It's a 0 point dessert as long as I don't over do the whipped cream.
  • Fruit and yogurt. There's always the old stand by, one of my Light & Fit yogurts and a handful of strawberries or a banana.  2 points.

That's pretty much it y'all.  My points vary by the day but typically I eat 22-28 points a day. I eat a LOT of fruits and veggies, especially right now(summer) because so many of my favorite fruits are in season. About once per week I let myself go "over points" and eat up to 35 points in a day.  I think I eat between 1,300 and 1,600 calories in a day. Probably closer to the lower end of that scale.  I haven't tracked in My Fitness Pal in a little bit so I'm not 100% sure.







Sunday, August 19, 2018

Who What Why???

Hi! My name is Myndie and I'm a 39 year old woman living near Minneapolis, MN. I live with my fiance Josh and his two daughters M and C. I'm starting this blog because I've lost 110 pounds since June of 2017 and I get questions from people fairly frequently about how I did it, what I eat, how I stay motivated, etc.  And since I don't necessarily want to type the same thing over and over again I thought I would start a blog and answer some of those questions here.  PLUS it will keep me accountable

Why the heck did I call this blog Nervie Jane?  Is my real name Minerva? Nope.  Growing up with undiagnosed ADHD I tended to lose focus and not hear my name called especially if I was hyper focused on a book or television show.  My mom would call my actual name 3 or 4 times and if I didn't respond she would call me "MINERVA JANE!" or "NERVIE JANE!" and that would almost guarantee I would hear her.  My mom passed away from complications with surgery for colon cancer in 2005.  Since then I have kind of used this as my online persona/name.  Its a tribute to my strong and amazing Mom.

I'm almost done with the losing portion of the weight loss journey and heading towards maintenance.  Everyone thinks weight loss is the hard part but from everything I read and everyone I talk to I believe maintenance is going to be tougher.  Personally with my weight loss I've always had the next weight loss goal to hit or the next milestone to achieve.  Those milestones and lower numbers on the scale are pretty great rewards.  The struggle will be when my goals aren't scale related anymore.  What does a maintenance lifestyle look like?I will get more into that in later entries I'm sure but thought I would round things out with a little more about me.

About a year and a half ago I went home to Illinois to be with my family while my heart replacement surgery. I come from a large family, I have 3 older sisters and 3 older brothers.  We were mostly all at the hospital and hanging out together for several days.  Two of my sisters(Connie and Carrie) had been on their own weight loss journeys and making healthy choices.  There was a lot of downtime and waiting at the hospital and they would go walking and stay active.  At the time I weighed nearly 300 pounds and was usually in some sort of pain with my hips and back. I couldn't/didn't walk or exercise with them on the trip.  My other sister(Melanie) has a lot of chronic health and pain issues and was also unable to walk with them.  During our trip we were using a wheelchair to help her get around and she was in a lot of pain and taking a lot of pain medications.  I saw this and it scared me because I knew that I have some of the same issues with joint pain that she has and my weight exacerbated my issues. (To clarify there is a 17-18 year age difference between Connie, Melanie and I. I am the youngest sibling and they are the two oldest.)

When I got home from the trip the thought of not being able to keep up with my sisters bothered me.  The idea of being this fat lady only in her 40's and unable to be mobile scared the CRAP out of me.  If Melanie has always been thin and was in that much pain what was it going to be like for me?

On June 3, 2017 I weighed in at 281.6 pounds at my first Weight Watchers meeting. I had tried Weight Watchers previously and had success only to quit because of financial reasons or other circumstances.  I knew it worked I just had to DO IT. As of this Saturday August 18, 2018 I weigh 171.2 pounds.  I am 5'9" tall so a healthy BMI for me starts at 169 pounds. When I was at my heaviest I had a BMI of 41.6 and was considered obese. I will say it right now BMI is definitely not the only indicator of health.  I know that it is a horribly flawed system.  BUT it does give you a  building block to start from when you try to figure out what is healthy for you.  Weight is not the only indicator of health.  I started WW with the idea that I would get down to around 200 pounds or so just until I felt like I was at a healthy weight.  I've discussed my weight,  and family history of heart disease and colon cancer with my doctor since then.  (My doctor is AMAZING btw!) And given that I carry fat in my abdominal area 200 pounds wasn't a healthy weight for me.  TALK TO YOUR DOCTOR folks.  Seriously having these real discussions with my doc have helped me so much.


Ok, I've been rambling a lot and gone on for too long.  More info and specifics in future posts!




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